Invisible {Journey to a diagnosis}

I’ve always felt like i was invisible, and i’m not saying that as a bad thing. I enjoy not being the center of attention, i like to blend in. So, I’ve always thought of my invisibility as a super power. And it’s been a great super power, kid’s i went to school with since preschool couldn’t even get my name right in high school, that’s how great my super power was. Until the day my super power felt not so super anymore…

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But to get to that, we have to go back to 7 weeks ago.

I had been completely healthy until one day i just wasn’t. It hit me out of nowhere, my ear was in intense pain. The next day i woke up to a lump behind my ear. The following Monday i went into quick care because the pain was unbearable.

They prescribed me some antibiotics, because they believed an infection was about to start. That week i was still in a crazy amount of pain, the antibiotics were not working, the lump was still there, other symptoms started showing up too. I went back the following week and they didn’t know what to do.

They referred me to an ENT (Ears, Nose, and Throat doctor). I made the appointment, went and saw him, he was of no help. He thought it was a jaw problem.

I made an appointment for a GP (general practitioner). He thought it was Mono so he made me get some blood work done.

I waited and waited to hear back from them, days passed with no word. So i finally called them, apparently they had my phone number wrong. But it turned out the blood test was negative for Mono. And they actually asked me if i wanted to continue with more testing or if i was ok to give up?

This was around week 4-5 of being in pain, i was still in pain, nothing was working. Here’s a list of all the symptoms i was having:

  • lump behind ear
  • ear pain
  • fevers
  • chills
  • chest pain
  • left side pain
  • headaches
  • loss of appetite
  • fatigue

I couldn’t believe they would even ask that, yes i want to continue. I want to know why i’m in so much pain and i want to know how to fix it.

So we continued, they made an appointment for me to get an ultrasound done on my neck.

On a Monday morning i had my ultrasound done. I was told i should hear back sometime Monday afternoon. But nothing. No call back.

Tuesday comes and goes, no call back. So i called them and was told “well it can take up to 48 hours to hear back, so keep waiting.”

Wednesday comes and goes, nothing.

Thursday, my husband was fed up at this point and decided to call them. Yes they had my results, they had had them since Monday. They just forgot to call me. 6 weeks of me being in pain.. 6 weeks of having no idea what is wrong with me… and they just forgot to call me… This is the point where i started to feel like my super power wasn’t so super anymore. It now started to feel more like a curse.

The ultrasound came back not conclusive, so more tests were in order. A CT scan was our next step.

Have you ever had a CT scan done before? I don’t recommend having one done, if you can avoid it. Especially if they are doing it with contrast. They hook you up with an IV, shoot iodine into your blood stream, which immediately makes you feel like you have peed your pants. But for me, it also made me feel dizzy and sick to my stomach. Probably didn’t help that i wasn’t allowed to eat anything for 6 hours before the test. I was on the verge of passing out.

However, the next morning i received a phone call from my doctor. We finally have a diagnosis. It’s my thyroid. More specifically my thyroid is swollen. 7 weeks later, 49 days of being in non-stop pain, 70,560 minutes of not knowing what the future will be like. And i finally have an answer.

Well, a partial answer. They asked me to go back in to get more blood work done and i have an appointment on Monday to see my doctor again to go over everything. But finally after 7 weeks of pain, i am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel.

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House/Life Updates

Hi Guys!

It’s been awhile since i’ve updated on how things are going with the new house, animals, etc. So today i thought would be a good day to share all that.

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My parents visited last month and while they were here they built us an amazing chicken coop!

My girls are so spoiled!

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*This photo was taken before the chicken coop got painted red.*

Speaking of the chickens, they are all still doing really well. Hazel, our crooked beak chicken, is struggling to gain weight. However, we think we have found a better way for her to eat and she seems to be doing well.

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A few months ago i shared with you all our new family members, well we have since grown…

Introducing…

Jasmine

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She is about 5/6 months old.

And also introducing…

Charlie

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He is an 8 weeks old black lab.

We have added on grass to the backyard, and we have also fenced part of it in.We have a pool and a trampoline back there. We love living out here in the country.

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That’s all the updates for now, thanks for reading!

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Anniversary Box

Hi Guys!

This month my husband and i will be celebrating 15 years of marriage. So i thought it would be fun to do a marriage post every Monday for the rest of August.

Today i’m going to share with you, this idea that came to me a few years ago, after reading a sexy stocking post from The Dating Divas.

An Anniversary Box.

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Here’s the general idea, you and your spouse fill up the anniversary box with fun stuff for the both of you to enjoy together (movie tickets, lotions, dvd’s, massage oils, etc.) and then on your anniversary you open it up together.

I just used an old Bath & Body Works box i had laying around, but you could really use anything you want.

Since our anniversary is the 21st of August, we would start filling up our anniversary box on August 1st, and by the 21st we should have plenty of goodies inside.

I hope you enjoy this idea, if you try it be sure to let me know!

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We bought a house!

Hi Guys!

I realize i haven’t updated you all on the house buying process recently. Well, as you can tell from the title, we bought a house!!

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If you follow me on Instagram, then you know all of this already because i update there more frequently, but we closed on the house May 1st!

Since then we have been busy doing yard work, painting, ripping out carpets, and dealing with wildlife.

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We are finishing up all the painting today and tomorrow, then Sunday we will go in and do a final cleaning from top to bottom. And on Monday we have new carpet being installed!

Which means Tuesday will be our official moving day! We are all so excited to move into this house!

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I can’t wait to show you all the house once it is finished and ready to move into. Until then, i hope you all have a great weekend!

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Passion

The other day i was filling out forms for my blog, and one of the questions on the form was “What is your passion?”.

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With passion being defined as “strong and barely controllable emotion.”, this was a hard question of me.

I had to stop and put the form away. I couldn’t answer that question.

I have no passion.

Nothing.

That got me thinking.

Is that normal to be passionless?

I have things i enjoy, but nothing i am truly passionate about.

This worries me.

This makes me feel like i will live a life that is dull/boring or unfilled. Life is short, it is meant to be enjoyed and lived to the fullest. But if i have no passion/nothing that drives me, what kind of life is that?

How does one even go about finding their passion? Do they seek it out, or does it naturally come to them?

When i am feeling this way about something, of course i head to Google for some answers. I typed in “how to find your passion” and was thrown into a virtual world of pretty pictures, flow charts and questionnaires.

My hope was high as i clicked on “ten questions to help you find your passion”, but that hope filled bubble burst when i was stuck on the very first question.

Will i ever be able to find my passion, if i can’t even answer the first question?

I closed my laptop and went off to bed with that gloomy thought lingering in my mind.

So, if you can’t answer a questionnaire to find your passion, do you then experiment with a bunch of different hobbies/jobs/volunteer work until you find it? Or, like i previously said, do you wait for your passion to come to you naturally?

I’m still not sure. I’d have to check Google, but i don’t want to get sucked down that wormhole again.

All of this brings up another thought…

Do purpose and passion go together? Can you live a life without passion, but with purpose? Or vice versa?

Clearly i don’t have any of the answers to these questions, but hopefully today’s blog post has given you some food for thought.

Oh and in case you are also searching for your passion (and are better at answering questionnaires than i am), here’s Oprah’s 10 questions to finding your passion. Good luck!

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*Stock photo provided by Unsplash*

 

10 Year Anniversary

Hi Guys!

Today is my 10 year blogging anniversary!!

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That’s right 10 years ago today i started this little blog and over the years it has evolved from my 1 reader (Hi Mom!) to my now 28 followers (Hi Guys! Thanks so much for following me!). 28 might not seem like a big number to most, but to me it means so much and i’m grateful for each one of them!

In those past 10 years we have added 3 more children to Our Family, we have moved from State to State, and we have started homeschooling. Our lives have changed so much over the years and so has this blog.

“Today┬áDasean finally smiled at me for the first time. It was so cute too! It was definitely worth the wait!!”

That was my first ever blog post! Which, to me now, is more like something that should have been posted on Facebook, but i was a blogging newbie and didn’t really understand how the whole blog thing worked. So, I appreciate everyone that has stuck with me over the years, as i have tried to figure this blogging thing out.

Does 10 years feel like a big deal to anyone else? 10 years feels like a really big deal to me. It feels like maybe i should go out and buy myself a drink or something to celebrate kinda big deal.. but honestly i’m a mom, so that drink would most likely be an overpriced cup of coffee. Cheers!

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